Grrr...

Why not me. My first love is getting married in a few months. It hurts. I don't even know if I still would like him if I saw him face to face again, but just the thought of the girl that came after me getting the guy.... It just sucks. I know it happens everyday and I'm not the first or the last to have this happen to them but it hurts none the less.
And on an additional note, do I have "sucker" written across my forehead? He calls, we make plans even though we haven't seen each other in months, I work, I call him when I'm out, and nothing.... um hello? Did I miss something here? Didn't we make plans? Yeah, I thought so. So do I ignore him from now on like I've been trying to do or do I call him out on it? Grrr...